The run-away boy [Coming to soon at a cinema near you]

Nope, it isn't a name for a movie...

Rather that it is what i am feeling right now...

Always trying to run away aren't ya? Don't ch'a get tired? I think i can hear you say

Yeah... I know this is cowardly... But this seems to be programmed rather deeply in me!

A funny thing isn't it, its always easier to give advice than follow your own...

Dreams, hopes can come crashing down on you so suddenly you don't know what to do.

I remember... Someone asked me why I have a blog. Well, my answer is that

"So i would have some where to record my thoughts"

Er? But it would mean others would also read it, right?

Ha ha... You caught me on that one, maybe deep in me i wanted someone to read this and perhaps understand more about me. This i suppose you can call, my way of escaping reality, it seems i never like to confront my problems, so running away is the only option?

That's just sad... Isn't it?

I wanted to believe that my problems would just disappear if i ignore it, as if it just evapourated.

Haiz... I just wanted to say...

" I'm really sorry! "

For anyone i let down, or if i made you feel disappointed

" I'm really, really, really, sorry! "

Apart from saying sorry, i really can't do much...

But i hope that you people can find in your heart to forgive me...

If this is really a dream... Would i choose to wake up?

Lets see... for one this isn't a dream... And unlike a rpg game there is no fixed path for me to follow.

Well, isn't that scary? Too much freedom ? Aha!

You know, i once heard someone said that :

Although birds enjoy flying in the sky, if they could never find a place to land. They would hate having wings to fly in the first place...

Hmm... ^ that didn't sound much like the orginal but it's something close, i guess...

If everyday is a new story... Would it begin like this:

"Once upon a time, in a land far far away..."

And end like this :

"And they lived happily ever after..."

I always wanted to write a story... But you can say i always never got to the end...

It's rather sad... For a story without an end is like it's charactor can never come alive once more in the hearts of the reader...