The run-away boy [Coming to soon at a cinema near you]

Nope, it isn't a name for a movie...

Rather that it is what i am feeling right now...

Always trying to run away aren't ya? Don't ch'a get tired? I think i can hear you say

Yeah... I know this is cowardly... But this seems to be programmed rather deeply in me!

A funny thing isn't it, its always easier to give advice than follow your own...

Dreams, hopes can come crashing down on you so suddenly you don't know what to do.

I remember... Someone asked me why I have a blog. Well, my answer is that

"So i would have some where to record my thoughts"

Er? But it would mean others would also read it, right?

Ha ha... You caught me on that one, maybe deep in me i wanted someone to read this and perhaps understand more about me. This i suppose you can call, my way of escaping reality, it seems i never like to confront my problems, so running away is the only option?

That's just sad... Isn't it?

I wanted to believe that my problems would just disappear if i ignore it, as if it just evapourated.

Haiz... I just wanted to say...

" I'm really sorry! "

For anyone i let down, or if i made you feel disappointed

" I'm really, really, really, sorry! "

Apart from saying sorry, i really can't do much...

But i hope that you people can find in your heart to forgive me...

If this is really a dream... Would i choose to wake up?

Lets see... for one this isn't a dream... And unlike a rpg game there is no fixed path for me to follow.

Well, isn't that scary? Too much freedom ? Aha!

You know, i once heard someone said that :

Although birds enjoy flying in the sky, if they could never find a place to land. They would hate having wings to fly in the first place...

Hmm... ^ that didn't sound much like the orginal but it's something close, i guess...

If everyday is a new story... Would it begin like this:

"Once upon a time, in a land far far away..."

And end like this :

"And they lived happily ever after..."

I always wanted to write a story... But you can say i always never got to the end...

It's rather sad... For a story without an end is like it's charactor can never come alive once more in the hearts of the reader...

La la la... i'm in happyland...

Haiz... i am quite tired now... think i will make this short...

Today was okay, nothing major came up...

I rested most of today alway... haven started on important stuff yet (T-T)

Haiz... is history repeating itself again?

"Round and round on this wheel... This is life..."

Wa... Is it becoming a habit?

Yeah... I noticed that i didn't update for some days...

I'm afraid its becoming a habit...

See... I am trying to squeeze every bit of 'time' dry...

I am always running away now... I keep avoiding all my problems...

Pretending that they don't exist... But they do! I hear them screaming in the back of my head when i go to sleep...

Sleep is the only time i feel safe... Now, its like everyday... I am afraid...

I know problems exist for us to learn from it...

But since last time i felt so broken down... There doesn't seems to have much hope left in me...

Why...? I want to know...

Now for my projects... Only Major Project and CMSK left...

But i still feel so pressured...

The scary thing was: I was desperate enough to think of suicide...

I am not sure why i though of that... Life is precious and we shouldn't waste it...

Because i don't know what will happen after that... Who knows...?

Like my friend said:

"When we die... That's the end of story... We return to the earth... Nothing
more..."

Why get upset over such a small matter? I can hear you think...

Hmm... That's what i wanted to know to...

"Cloud is cloud, sky is sky... Remember that!"

MIA for 4 days?

Nah... Aliens did not kidnap me...

I was busy doing my Major Project and my other school project, doesn't seems to have much time to write this blog.

Felt like a was forced into a corner... That feeling was overwhelming, i felt like i lost hope in everything at that moment...

Didn't do much stuff today... Maybe i worked too hard the previous days? Ha ha...

10+ days to submission of Major Project... Haiz...

Oh ya, i returned the book tap dancing in zen today, and borrowed a new book...

Its "meeting monkey halfway" (I think), spent some time at the library machine because my card was not working...

Which was funny, when i was about to give up... My library card finally worked! But after that, i encountered the same error (T-T)

Well... Onwards to tomorrow...

"They say we always have time, we always make time for 'important' stuff...
Don't we? ;)"

Where's my instruction manual for life?

Haiz... drowning in my own problems makes me wanna run away from everything...

Maybe thats the reason i didn't update this blog for sometime...

My MP is haiz...

My other projects also haiz...

Well... Hope that tomorrow will be a better day :)

"You can run away from yourself... But you can never hide from the
truth..."

Hanging on to time...

Grabbing on to strongly is no good...

That makes you attached to the certain thing, which in this case is 'Time'

Arrggh! What am i saying... seems that i am gettin too sleepy to write...

Time seems always not enough for me...

is it the same thing for you?

"Time... Now you see it... Now you don't :)"

Who am i...?

No... I am not suffering from amnesia...

I was thinking about this question... Who exactly am i?

My usual response to this is that i am an average guy living an average life...

Nothing special about me...

Wait... If i am a average guy then... Will i disappear... Forgotten like every average guy?

Cos people don't really notice my kind of people...

They usually care about the super good and super bad... Sad to say they don't remember those in the middle...

So i strive to be special... Tried to join the rank of the elites... Didn't work out so well...

Seems that they were simply too "Elite" to start with...

And not to say... i wouldn't want to attract negative attention from people, so being super bad was out of the question...

Which makes me still stuck at the average bunch... Haiz...

You know, all this stuff could be the work of my judging mind... In other words my ego... Pride...

That kind of feeling that you have to be bigger and better then people...

To be free from our ego we no longer need to satisfy such an unhealthy hunger...

Its like they say:

"No point showing off to people above you, they would still look down on you..."

"Same for people below you, show off to them, they would just envy you..."

Oh... Oh most forgot... There what i drew today :)


(My Snow White :D )
Click here to see how i drew this.


(Me!)
Click here to see how i drew this.

Today is national day... So Happy Birthday Singapore! I watched the NDP on TV... Lazy to go get tickets :)

At least completed something today... My part on the ENAD project...

However still got DSCN and Major Project to do... Aiyayayayaaa....

Oh boy! Sure hope tomorrow works out :D

"When you want something, you lose everything..."

"When you don't want anything, you have everything...'

Fear... The night closes in on me...

Had a scary nightmare yesterday night/early morning...

I can't seems to remember it clearly now...

I think it got something to do about zombies... I just remember it's a scary dream...

I woke up sweating... My window was open... The clouds in the sky looked yellow...

At that point in time... I wasn't sure if i was still dreaming...

I didn't dare to close my eyes... Until i felt that i was safe...

In the morning, the clouds seems normal again... Perhaps it was just my imagination?

Maybe...

Oh no... Only 1 week left to complete my two projects not to mention my Major Project (T-T)

How am i going to squeeze this?

Argg! One free day tomorrow because it's national day (Happy 40th Birthday Singapore!) but i don't think i can do much... Cos my relatives are coming over to celebrate...

I think i will go speak to the tree in the garden...

Well... I will stop here for today (-_-) Nite!

""Does a dog have Buddha nature?"

"MU!"

Another day passed... How many left till holidays?

Haiz... Spend most of today doing my major project and nothing...

It seems that this mp stuff is draining me of my life (T-T)

I sure is happy when this thing is finally over... Which won't be... At least for a few weeks that is...

Not forgetting my other projects... DSCN, ENAD...

Oh no... Have 1 week to finish them...

Guess my friend said rite, this coming week... No one will have a good night's sleep...

Why didn't i start my projects earlier?

Hey... Its always easier to give advise then to follow them ya'know.

I spend my time thinking i was doing important stuff ok?

So maybe they wasn't that important... But it sure seems to be at that moment in time...

Aiya... My old habit of fearing phone calls are back again? Maybe because i have linked my handphone calls to having more work to be done? Who knows?

maybe i need to seek help...

Another day passed while i still don't know what i was doing...

This can be going for sometime..

Anyways, it's time to turn in... Hope tomorrow will be a better day :)

"The cloudy sky fore tell a storm's arrival...."

Oh boy... i strayed from the path... again...

Again and again...

Its seems so hard to stick to the orginal path isn't it?

Arrggg! The pain... the pain...

Talking about path... reminds me of the book "Tap dancing in zen"

The metta sutra... was the main theme of the book

Heres the sutra:

This is what should be done
By one who is skilled in goodness,
And who knows the path of peace:
Let them be able and upright,
Straightforward and gentle in speech.
Humble and not conceited,
Contented and easily satisfied.
Unburdened with duties and frugal in their ways.

Peaceful and calm, and wise and skilful,
Not proud and demanding in nature.
Let them not do the slightest thing
That the wise would later reprove.
Wishing: In gladness and in safety,
May all beings be at ease.
Whatever living beings there may be;
Whether they are weak or strong, omitting none,
The great or the mighty, medium, short or small,
The seen and the unseen,
Those living near and far away,
Those born and to-be-born,
May all beings be at ease!

Let none deceive another,
Or despise any being in any state.
Let none through anger or ill-willWish harm upon another.
Even as a mother protects with her life
Her child, her only child,So with a boundless heart
Should one cherish all living beings:
Radiating kindness over the entire worldSpreading upwards to the skies,
And downwards to the depths;
Outwards and unbounded,
Freed from hatred and ill-will.
Whether standing or walking,
seated or lying down
Free from drowsiness,
One should sustain this recollection.
This is said to be the sublime abiding.
By not holding to fixed views,
The pure-hearted one,
having clarity of vision
,Being freed from all sense desires,
Is not born again into this world.


Heh... its quite long... Perhaps when i truely userstand this sutra... I will no longer stray from my path :)

Handphones... Never leave home without it?

I think you must agree with me, most people nowadays own their own handphone, the age goes down from like 10...

It seems that a handphone has become an extention of a person, it like part of your body...

This craze i think kicked in when i was still in secondary school...

Before that, i thought...

"why bring a handphone around?

I can call from any public pay phone...

Why bring a handphone along just because you can play it's game when you are bored? I take my gameboy color over this any day..."

Well... That's pretty much what i thought...

Until... It became a trend... Needing to keep up, i pestered my parents to buy me one...

It was an old Motorola model... But at that time i was very happy...

Ah... Good old times...

Now? i own a color phone... No camera tho...

But i just seems not to want to upgrade unlike before...

Haiz... It's getting dark... Just i will continue this another day...

"Life is like a wrestling match, huh? So which side wins?"

"Love... Love always win :)"

Me slacking away... Haiz

Sianz don't feel like typing much today...

Stuck in MP, kinda hard to move on... New requirements keep coming up...

I tried...

i am so tired of this...

oh well... Life goes on... Nite (-_-)zZ

"The blue wind... Where are you now?"

What to do now? I'm confused...

Oh no... I realised that i had totally no idea how to proceed further...

In case you are wondering, i am talking about my major project...

It's now me staring blankly at the code my team leader gave me to convert animations to png file...

Sure... It's coded nicely... It takes in a animation file, then outputs a png file of it...

Sounds wonderful huh? Well, it just seems that it can only read in files! Not binary streams!

How am i going to convert them this way...?

Some one... Please help me?

The next thing is that my supervisor for my Major Project wants me to display the frame filled png as a animation on the web...

Is that even possible? Am i going to convert the png back to animation?

Arrggg.... So much thoughts... My brain is hurting...

Like this picture

(Explosion!)

Here's the link that shows how i drew it click here

"Originally nothing... Where can dust settle?"

Ah... I haven't been busy...

Why didn't i update my blog for one day?

Well, i was busy playing on a new MU private server... (MUPK)

Which took away most of my time (',')... I admit being lazy was one of the factor...

Today?

Well, i stayed in school till like 6... Reached home at 7+ started gaming again...

So is that right or wrong?

In some way i would want it to be right... Then i wouldn't feel so guilty playing away my free time...

On the other hand... I wanted my self to feel guilty doing so... Because i knew i had other important stuff to do (like blogging...)

Its like in a wrestling match... The one that win will prevail...
(I took that from a book :D)

Speaking about books... I began reading one, naturally it is in the scope of zen...

Its name is "Tap dancing in Zen"

Why tap dancing? Let me explain...

The beginning stage of realizing we have a problem is like we learning crawl on fours like babies...

We start to search for the source of the problem... Is like walking on two legs...

Finally the last stage that we realize the truth... We can tap dance now... :D

Hehe... Hope i am making sense to you, because i am rushing to write this because of the reminders that i have to sleep now... There you have it : )

Nite (-_-)zZ

"The greatest drawback in lying isn't that nobody believes you, it
is you that cannot believe what anyone says anymore..."

Fear is eating me alive!

Nooo.... Fear struck again once more...

My friend asked me on the NS thing that i submitted weeks ago...

He ask me i got apply for deferment... I was like, why apply for deferment again when i done it before going to poly?

Then... After a while... Fear struck!

"Do i need to apply?"

"If i did it wrong... How? I very afriad i did it wrong..."

"Don't make sense! I mean..."

"What if he's right? I haven't asked my other friends yet..."

Woah! Thats a lot of though going on there... See how a moment ago i was peaceful...

And suddenly i became a volcano of emotion...

Ok ok... I admit i was kinda lazy this few days... It seems that i was running away from what i am supposed to do...

Haiz... What should i do now? Maybe you can give me some advice (T-T)

"The cat like fish, the old man drinks tea..."

Okay... So i am lazy...

I know i didn't update this blog for two days aready...

I was simply just enjoying my freedom...

Well, only for a few days more... Then back to working on school stuff le.

So maybe you can let me off this time :)

"Balance? There is no balance... "

0245... What's that?

No that's not a time, and no... It certainly isn't a winning 4D number (0243 is a winning number)

That number is printed on my hand today... For NAPFA test, if you were wondering...

I tried washing a few times, but the number still stays on my hand (T-T)

How did the NAPFA test go?

Err... I wouldn't want to say much on that *sensitive* subject...

No really... Tell me what happen...!

(-_-) Okay... Lets see... Failed like 4 out of 6 stations... Which few?

Its standing broad jump, shutter run, chin-up, and 2.4 run

Sianz now means i need to go into NS early... (T-T)

Hope that the next NAPFA test (If there ever is one...) i can pass lor...

Lets not talk about sad stuff...

My cartooning course i attended was quite fun, learn quite a number of things, like how to draw human faces...

The secret is stop restraining yourself! Don't care about what people say! There is no 'right' method of drawing...



(Faces...)

that's what i drew at the course, sorry if the image is kinda big... Its the real actual size.

One of my friends say the drawing looks like me (LOL)

I think i will end here for today... Sleeping time :)

"form is emptiness, emptiness is form..."

"no form, no emptiness..."

"form is form, emptiness is emptiness..."

NAPFA Tomorrow!

Oh no... The dreaded NAPFA test is tomorrow...

How's my preparation?

Don't think gonna help much, hope the training i done on some weekends can pay off...

Other then that... I just hope a miracle can happen...

The cartooning course i signed up for is also tomorrow... Wah... I sure hope the NAPFA test ends before 6pm, cos that's the time my cartooning course starts...

If i don't go for the cartooning course, i may fail APEL!!!

Arggg! Why is this happening to me?

I guess there is no point being angry and all...

But i can't stop worrying about tomorrow...

I know, worries doesn't solve anything... But the strange thing is by worrying, i am actually convincing my self that it would be alright?

Stayed back in school to debug my Web Submission System... Well, still some bugs left but can say that it performs basic functions...

One thing i keep telling myself, i need to do this... do that... When i reach home...

But guess what? 3/4 of the time i will drift of to do other stuff (T-T)

Maybe that's what people call "short attention span" ?

Ah... After hearing about my worrying and stuff... i guess it kinda paints a gloomy picture huh?

Here's one 'painting' i did today (Click here to see how i drew it)


(Without a clue...)

Nite time... so soon... Oh well, have a nice nite :)

"Can you tell me the ultimate truth?"

"The sky is high, the ground is hard..."

Colorless day...

Today when i woke up, i looked around...

It seems be be a colorless day...

What you mean by a colorless day?

I meant that things around suddenly seems so dull... Like adding gray to all the bright colors...

I drew this today using artpad... (Click here to view how i drew it)


(Colorless day...)

Sianz... Just got news... I am going to the medical checkup alone on the 21 of Oct (T-T)

Hope my fear of people doesn't kick in then...

Lots of work to do... But haven't started yet...

i don't know what to do now... Someone... Anyone... I really need HELP!!!!

"When the world you know seems to be closing in... Look at the sky, at least it
will be blue..."

Hey! You're early!

Ya... i wrote this entry early because i know, i got lots of stuff to do later (T-T)

like the booking of the medical check up (Sianz... Going NS soon...)

And some of my other work (The extract frame thingy...)

I didn't write anything yesterday, because i was out voluteering for the thing i signed up (volunteer-a-day)

Next week is NAFA test aready...

Hows my preparation?

Guess, will have to go in NS earlier if i don't pass... (T-T)

Lets just hope a miracle will happen on the test date :)

Found this cool web site that records what you draw...

http://artpad.art.com/?ik4q6cftuns (Heres wat i drew)

How am i gonna face tomorrow?

Wish me luck for tomorrow...

"Don't know? Easy... Just go straight, your answer will be there..."

Wah... Is it slowing down?

No.... I just though my internet speed just went down... I hope it is just my imagination playing...

Becos, i don't want to go beck to like 56K that time...

It seems that it slows down after a while... Then the speed goes back to normal...

Hmm... What went wrong?

Didn't do much today... Just much like yesterday...

Aiya... What am i running away from? I feel that way...

I know a lot of stuff is waiting for me to do...

But i just don't 'feel' like doing anything...

Haiz... Now so close to sleeping time already... Hope tomorrow's trip to the old folks home will be a good one...

"If you understand this, you don't know the truth..."

What an ending... (Half-Blood Prince)

Haha... I couldn't stop myself to finish the "Harry Potter: Half-blood prince" I took like 3 hours to read through the remaining pages from before...

So how the ending?

Well, it is sad... Because a lot happened in the end... ('-')

And about the identity of half blood prince was unexpected (For me)

Also not forgetting harry's new girlfriend :)

Read the book, it is a good read :)

Okay i know that reading of the book took a large amount of working time from me... But i felt that i had to finish the book...

After i finished it... I feel so empty, i want MORE!!

Oh well, have to wait patiently for the next book... (Which i think will be out in a few years)

Hehe... Time to sleep now :)

" When you are standing on top of a 10 feet pole, how
can you go further from there? "

Time no enough...

No, that's not the name of Jack Neo's movie...

It is talking about me... I don't have enough time!

Why?

I am not too clear on this too...

Always when i start to relax, i find stuff stacked on me...

Take now for an instance, i was about to blog... A call sent me on a quest to look for "How to extract frames from GIF/flash"

I was suddenly overwhelmed! I felt like i was trying to squeeze an empty lemon for more juice...

I just felt sad... Deep down inside me, i can say that i hate the person who called...

Even although i know it wasn't his fault, wish that my problems would go away... (Like frodo wishing the ring never came to him...)

I know, i know i should be shameful of such behavior, i will keep that in mind...

Blame... We often like to push the blame on other people or objects... Never realizing that we have ourselves to blame for our troubles...

Its always "The bus is late!", "The test was too hard"...

Never "I woke up late and missed the bus", "I didn't study enough"...

This is also present in me too, you can see from what i wrote above...

Why is it so hard to put the blame on ourselves instead of other?

Pride maybe?

I guess i should go to sleep now, shouldn't stay up too late... Isn't good for your body :)

Good night!

"You don't understand? Try talking to the tree, you will find your answer
there..."

Daydreaming... Ah, building sand castle in the air...

That was what my primary school teacher used to say about me...

Yup, a daydreamer... I guess you can call me that :)

What's wrong with daydreaming?

Well, nothing is wrong with that, but excessive daydreaming can be dangerous...

After all, daydreams aren't real...

So no point getting happy or sad over something that isn't even real...

But sometimes... It seems so hard to not to daydream...

Or fantasies, i had a wonderful daydream in the library today (I was supposed to be calming my mind):

I dreamt about a young man (About 18~20) drinking a tea from a cup (Those small cup the Chinese drink out of), he was sitting under a tree...

On a hill that overlooked a vast field, he was thinking about how he met the girl of his dreams...

It was funny tho, the two met because of him, accidentally throwing the tea cup at her...

He went up and apologize...There under the tree, their friendship grew...

They had many happy and sad moments together...

The flash-back stopped there... Tears rolled down his cheek...

He put down the cup under the tree...

Walked down to the field slowly... Then turning back, and waved to the tree...

As if thanking the tree that has always been there for him...

The screen now zoomed to the truck of the tree... It was a heart shape carved onto the trunk, below was the year 19XX (Can't remember quite clearly now) ~ 2005...

And the daydream ended...

It is like a movie huh?

Yeah, i though so too... Wonder what happened to the girl tho?

What was the meaning of the year carved on the tree?

Haha... Perhaps you can tell me...

Okay enough of sand castles in the air...

Did some work on my Major project... Just found out today that we may need to have a prototype to show our supervisor (Oh no!)

Well, today's mediation session was quite restless, was able to hold my mind for a while...

I guess i would need to work harder... And try not to lose my temper so easily... (Sorry mom! I shouldn't have complain about you nagging)

Ah... All in a day's work... Time to sleep soon... Good Nite (-_-)zZ

"The sky has always been blue... Didn't you know that?"

A Fine day... Is this not?

Ever had those days where the people who you work with, try to give you "Advice" on stuff that you wouldn't need...

Which reminds me... I found this clip a few months ago, and which i still find funny today...

View Clip It is about dealing with your work stress, the fun way of cos... ;)

Okay... Back to what happened today...

Work up kinda late today... And caused me to go to school late today (T-T)

Can say i was quite lazy today :)

Luckily the project "rush" is over for a while... *~Phew~*

Never the less... Still feel that i have not enough time :(

Why? Why? I want to know too... (T-T)

Oh ya found an online version of Harry Potter here

Aiya... So fast sleeping time already... Guess it is off to bed with me...

"Open your mouth, you will receive thirty beatings from the
stick. Close your mouth, the thirty blows has already landed on
you."

"What should your response be... inorder to be spared from the stick?"

Miss me did'cha?

Hehe... I haven't forgotten about this blog.

It was just that i was too tired to blog this week.

You know this week is my 1 week break, which i refer as "Project Week".

Was at school most of the days, but don't worry...

I finished most of my projects...

Now... I just need more rest... More is coming my way (T-T)...

This week, a lot things happened... Like the NKF thing, which is mentioned in many blogs.

My judgment on the matter? Nah, i think i wouldn't want to judge... Wrong and right always so hard to differentiate...

Besides... I am not the CEO of NKF, i don't know what really happened...

So i will be unfair to judge on the tiny evidences given by the media...

People make mistakes... But not everyone is so lucky to have a second chance ya'know...

Talking about this, reminds me of a clip i watched sometime back...

Note: may contain some nudtiy... (It is quite big too... I mean the file size)

The worst day...

This is for those who don't want to watch the clip... Highlight to see the text.
Start highlight here>
This is about a average guy who accidentally click on some 'Dirty' link in his email...
This led to a chain of event to happen:

• His girlfriend left him
• Got kicked out of work
• His dog 'Died'
• Poor until get money from his sister
• Got looked down upon by everybody

Not able to take it anymore, he ends his life ...

So maybe try to be nicer to people next time? Making people feel happy will also do you good :)

Okay... Enough writting for today... Cya tommorrow

"The truth is always been near, you just didn't know where to look for
it..."

Time Out!

Aiya... I played away most of today...

How now, i have to hand up my part of the project to my ENAD team mates tomorrow...

How much has i completed it? Well i say 60~65%

Now i am so scared...

Can't write much now... Hope i survive tomorrow...(T-T)

"If tomorrow never comes, do you think you will work harder?"

Hooked! Is it a big one?

Haha... Just becos yesterday was the last day of term test, i held a post term test celebration which, consist me playing different games non-stop (gunz,mu online,...) today.

Mu Online? I thought you quit that a long time ago?

Ya, i did stop play MU for sometime now, but it seems that it has me hooked on again...

I am currently playing in this server: MU-Fun

i go under the name of "Leaf", so if you see me there just say hi :D

Aiya... My ENAD team mate has already SMS me on what to do for the project...

Now I can't play much games again... (T-T)

At least the project is do-able, hopefully...

Not forgetting i still have a major project intern report to write...

This break (1 week) cannot be considered as an holiday!

It should be called "Project Week"...

Haiz... No use complaining, better get started on my projects... :(

Not before a short game of MU ;)

"If you known the future, why did you do the mistake again?"

Is it over? Can i come out now?

Today is the last day of the term test! Hurray!

However today also marks the last show for "有福"... (I feel kinda sad...)

Well, at least 有福 got an happy ending...

Things come and go... It is hard not to attach to them... When something becomes part of your life you are just not sure if it will stay there forever...

However, i guess i would like it to stay forever... Silly thought on my part.

Wasn't i the one who talked about change? Yes, i know that change is ever present, we get suffering because we try to make the changing unchangeable...

Okay... Back to what happened today.

The paper was an open book, i think i have no problem with this paper :D

Did a strange thing on the bus back home tho, i was thinking of going to the tampines interchange to top up my ezlink card, but instead i told my friends i was going to the library... Well, when i reached that stop i told them i was going to get off, they told me the library is at the next stop...

I was not sure why i feel so strange about that, as if i did something wrong (Well, did i?)

*Yawn* It's time for me to go to bed :D

"When knowing becomes not knowing, how do you define knowing?"

Talent? Where do i get one of those?

Well, i looked in stores... Can't find it anyway...

Who am i? Am i a jack of all trade?

Sadly no... I think i am one of those jack with no trade (T-T)

Talent... What's my talent? I hear you ask...

Honestly... i don't think i have any talent worth mentioning here...

Why...! Why do i have no talent?

I sure do not want to be like what i drew today:


(Will draw for food...)

Just hope i can find my talent soon... :D

Okay... How did my DSCN test term go?

Well, i can say that it was an okay paper, hope i can pass tho...

After the paper... I went to the library to return the "Turning your mind into an ally" Hope it will still be there tomorrow, i will go to the library to borrow it again...

As for me studying for tomorrow's paper...

Er... I didn't study at all (What!)

I know, i know... This doesn't look too well does it?

Arrg! gotta cramp it all in tomorrow morning...

Wish me luck... (I think i gonna need it this time...)

"The sky will always be there, the water will always flow... Right? (Maybe)"

我跟昨天的我竞争... (Competing with my past self...)

Yes, you guessed right, the phrase i got for the title is from the lyrics of 欧得洋《明天的幸福》. Which is also the theme song for the show "有福"...

That reminds me, "有福" is coming to an end this Friday (T-T)...

Its a nice show... Heh, maybe secretly i wanted to be like 有福...

Being honest and all, guess because i can relate to what that has happened to him in the show...

Lets hope the show has a happy ending...

Ok... Now to why i chose the phrase for my title...

Well, isn't everyone competing,comparing, like almost everyday...

Don't they get tired? I does seems that way, for others...

But for me i am getting sick of this... Why should i change to become someone i am not?

What happened to "do your best, don't worry it will work out"? Now it is like, "No, i am better than you", "Haha! Loser!". It seems that almost everyone is becoming enemies... I am even competing with my past self? It just seems so hard to stop or slow down now...

Maybe... Just maybe it is only me thinking this way? Perhaps... If this is the case i think i just need to 'correct' my way of thinking...

Enough with my ramblings on that, let me tell you what happened today...

Woke up late, didn't really do the revision i said i would do yesterday...

Why do i keep repeating my same mistakes over and over again?

Spent a large portion of my time, playing games, watch tv...

Just hope what i studied can bail me out this time... (T-T)

"The stars ever-bright, guide me home..."

Wa... Not enough time!

I don't have enough time to do stuff, that i want to lately...

Due to exams and project? Maybe... But i don't think they are the reason.

I seems to be falling back to the habit, of looking for something that i know i never find...

Why do i do that? I like to know that too!

Perhaps this is how "me" is escaping from all the problems...

The feeling is very enticing, it just seems that all troubles will blow over when i find this certain "something"...

I know, i know this wouldn't do me any good, i am better off doing important stuff, like studying for my term test?

Talking about my term test... Let me tell you what happened today...

Well, when i first turned over the question paper, my heart almost skipped a beat! The first question left me completely stumped for a minute or so...

I moved on to next question, which luckily was something that i had done my revision over the night before... The last question i know half and don't know half (T-T)

You know, i said to myself then... That i would not let this same mistake happen again, i will prepare for my DSCN paper more earlier...

Well... Night time now, and i can say i didn't really study yet (T-T)...

Why! Why i always go back on my word! Aarrg! I am starting to doubt myself...

I will do my revision seriously tomorrow, wish me luck...

Oh ya, i did a drawing today:


(The core...)

"Tick tock, tick tock, it never waits for anyone... Does it? "

失败... 失败... (Failure)

Yep, that's the phrase from the 9 o'clock show from channel 8...

there's the site about the show "有福"

(有福 means "blessed with good fortune")

The phrase "失败... 失败..." keeps ringing in my head...

I know failure isn't something that you should be afraid...

But it is easier to say it then having it done, much like the term test on ENAD that i am taking tomorrow...

How, did the revision go? I hear you ask...

Well... I can say that i read through most of the stuff, i sure hope that it is enough...

Why am i feeling so insecure? I am not sure too...

I am not sure when, i picked up this habit of studying at the last minute...

That's why when exam time is near, i tend to feel stressed, it is like me VS time...

But the good thing is i made it all the time... I hope i make it for this time too...

Here's one of my favourite phrase from 有福:

"我不是笨蛋, 我是有福!"
"I am not stupid, i am blessed with good fortune!"

The moon is round...

Yeah... I know, didn't write yesterday...

Because of game playing i didn't write anything :)

Must kick myself...

*Kick* *Kick* *Ouch!*

Okay... Back to what happened today, did a morning run today...

All was well except i still couldn't do much pull-ups (T-T)

Didn't really study much today... Yeah, term test starts on next Tuesday...

So now how? I guess after writhing this, i would go to sleep and hope that i can finish revising tomorrow...

Wish me luck :)

"It is never too late, just remember that!"

Finally... A break at last

Yup... You heard right, finally got to rest today!

I gamed most of today away :D Must be due to the pressure on me the last few days...

Heh... Now getting kinda sleepy already (-_-)zZ

Okay... Lets get down to what happened today...

Woke up late to complete my Apel reflection thingy.

School passed very quickly...

Soon i was at home, i sat for a meditation and then i was to gamingland!

Aiya, the volunteer thingy still need to fill in again... i am starting to have second thoughts aready...

Did a drawing today...


(worries' Over)

Wa... Cannot write more... Eyes closing...

Nite (-_-)zZ

"Again and again, that is how life is..."

Self and no self?

I know that this is going to be short...

They say self is like a bunch of grain of rice that sticks together?

If you break it down you will see it doesn't exist?

Today ar... Signed up for a lot of stuff, a volunteer event, a talk on web services, a course on cartooning...

Just hope i won't regret my actions later...

Kinda worried about my DSCN project... My team mates should (have) completed it...

I went for the talk on India, took about 3 hours, the refreshments is sure good :)

I no need to have dinner today :D

Oh well, lets see how tomorrow will be...

"If you don't know where you are going, you might not get there... Just like a driftwood in the sea..."

False, false, and... false?

True and false are the same?

In programming true and false represent different states...

However if you think carefully, can true exist without false?

That is why i say they depend on each other...

You may think i am repeating the same thing over and over, which in some sense quite true...

After all, a circle can represent life :)

Heh... That's my rambling, still too attached to my "self"...

Sooner or later, the truth is bound to appear... And i will be waiting...

About what happened today...

Today was a short day tho, got only 2 lectures and 1 tutorial...

But i had to stay back to do my DSCN project (T-T) which (i hope) is completed...

I need to be more helpful, i know that i kinda look like a slacker on projects, wonder the reason is that i was too used to seat at the back and watch stuff pass by?

My team leader for Major Project isn't feeling too well nowadays, hope he gets better soon...

Aya. So much so little time... i would like to say that but i can't! (T-T) cos i know the real reason i am experiencing this is because i spend too much time in seeking fun...

Its hard to change, i know being too attached to your current lifestyle is not a good thing...

As nothing is unchanging...

Gotta go sleep now (-_-)zZ

"Change is always present, nothings stays the same forever..."

The stars at night...

It is nice to look at them isn't it?

You know, i always wanted to lie down on the grass and look up to the glittering sky.

Why? Haha... Maybe its me watching too such much drama stuff on TV, or maybe i just wanted the world to shrink down like the stars i see at night...

I know... I am attaching to my fantasy again, but sometimes it just seems so great, its like all your problems go away for a moment or so...

However it is advised not to stay in that state for too long (T-T)

Heh... I have been reading up on those things in "Turning your mind into an Ally", and i felt that it is very true...

After all, those thoughts are not real, like dreams one have at night.

It is best to stay focused in the present... Because, that's where you are now, that is all that matters...

Well, i am not saying you should stop planning for you future...

Just know that sometimes things doesn't always go your way, just do your best, that would be enough.

Okay~ Back to what happened today...

Did a discussion on the DSCN project with my team mates, and encountered some problems...

Like some run-time errors when the client connect to the server...

Also not forgetting that we tried to come with alternatives to do the project...

But the due date for the project is on Thursday! Oh no! 2 more days left! (T-T)

Sometimes only went you lose sometime, you realize how important it is...

That is called "taking things for granted", it is a common mistake made by many people (me included too :( )

Now not having much free time made me realized that i should have planned my days carefully...

I know... Due to my moment of folly, i left many things undone...

And now i am having a hard time catching up on them (T-T)

Haiz... Guess i will end today's entry here...

Off to finish what i started, a long time ago...

"Emptiness is not the opposite of existence, a bond like those two are like the cup with water..."

Life goes on...

Its a circle... I mean life is like a circle, or rather that the events that happen in life is like a circle...

If you slow yourself down and look around you... You will see that i am making sense...

I heard that in our world, everyone is rushing around looking for something, in the end what they are really looking for is perhaps so close to them, that they didn't realize it was there all along...

So... Did they spend their them looking for nothing? Well, life is a journey after all.

Perhaps it is one's goal to find out :D

Okay... Back to what happened today...

Tell you the truth, didn't do much today...

I know... I shouldn't be too absorbed in pleasure until i forget what i needed to do.

I will keep that in mind from now on.

This was what i drew today...


(Time flies...)

On-wards to tomorrow!

"The past no-more, in self found, present is now..."

Again and again... What am i looking for?

Yeah... i feel like am looking for something...

What is it am i looking for?

Why, i am not sure too... It seems that something important i lost...

And when i find it... All my problems will be solved?

Oh no... I think i am running away from all my problems (T-T)

Did nothing productive today... Its like something finally snapped inside me that says: "that's it, i don't care anymore..."

This can't go on! What will become of me? Noooo.....

Okay, so maybe a little less dramatic. Never the less, this is quite a serious problem...

Too much stress lately?

Maybe... I am not too sure... Can't think straight for this few days...

Could me missing meditations sessions be the cause?

I think i will try to arrange one session tomorrow.

Er... let us not talk about those depressing stuff...

Heres a drawing i did today:



(The Night)

Lets hope things change for the better tomorrow...

"Days of past, re-lived again, through's Winters night..."

Dreams & Fantasy... What are they made of?

Yes, i would like to know the answer to the question (^Title)

You see, dreams and fantasies are created by ourselves, it is like creating a story with our desire/hopes/fears.

It can be said that people will have different dreams...

Each will happen in different circumstances...

Okay... Enough of talk of non-existence stuff, back to what happened today.

Lets see... Woke up late today at 9am... (I was supposed to wake at 7:30)

Good thing lesson didn't start so early today (Lessons on Friday starts on 12pm)

Completed my proposal draft for CMSK... Teacher said it was quite okay.

What i was worried about is me being too absorbed in my fantasy that i lose myself in it... It happened again today...

Meditation today was not going too well, was run over by many wild thoughts...

Seems that i am losing my concentration, perhaps it is due to lack of game play?

Ha ha... Maybe...

"The summer night, stars shining, never this bright..."

More is good?

*Yawnz*

Oh wow... Another day passed...

Its like way past my bed time, that's why i feel kinda sleepy?
(I normally sleep like at 11pm)

Anyways on what happened today...

Nothing much different happened, still board the same crowded bus to school...

Oh boy, they sure need to increase the frequrency of the bus, cos it was still packed even although i went to the interchange to take the bus...

DSCN project? How did it go?

Well, we started coding already seems to be moving along fine, hopefully no stuns come up on the way...

In class today, felt very sleepy tho... Maybe due to lack of sleep?

Hahaha... I know i should write this down...

i am constantly too engaged in my own fantasy that i lose track of time, which is also why i am still up at such an hour (T-T)

From 7-8:30pm i don't know what i was doing... I was looking for something...

But for what? I don't understand... As if i was search for something very important...

What exactly is it?

Almost forgot, my meditation today was quite restless too...

What is wrong with me?

Guess the fantasy i created is trying to take over again... *Sigh*

Oh well, i think i need some sleep now, cya...

"The foreign wind, blowing eastward, is still as cold..."

Bang... Bang... Bang?

Heh, seems that Gunz is going to my head, how does those Koreans do their moves, don't they get dizzy?

Oh well, i suppose one would be like them when one reaches their level.

Okay, back to business on what happened today.

Lets see... Today started out not so well, considering having a weird dream earlier that morning.

Dreamt about me carrying my favorite stuff toy, on a MRT train... Don't know what that is supposed to meant :p

Dreams are due to your mind is still working overtime, bringing your morning activities into your mind at nite, and weaves a fantasy out of it
(Thats what i think on dreams :D )

DSCN project? Nope, didn't do anything on it today at school...

Why? because... beca... er... i am not sure too, guess laziness kicked in.

But worry not, did an "Experiment" at home, i think i kinda got the hang of it.

This was what i drew at school today:


(Looking...)

Maybe you should guess what i was feeling then, when i drew this :D

Arghhh! Still got cmsk haven't do yet... Must hand in Friday (T-T)

ENAD project i suppose will be pushed back to the holidays...

Haiz... How to work all this out? I really want to know...

"The flower sleeps, in spring, it will awaken..."

Completeness vs Falling to pieces...

Oh boy, another day passed...

Not much progress on my DSCN project, i think i know what to do now...

And on my Major Project... What should i do now? Ahhhh! Its like falling to pieces all over again!

Like this picture...



Ever heard that it is just natural such thing will happen...

Life is like completeness and falling to pieces... All at the same time, can make you cry or fill you with joy...

Although i know that life isn't just a bed of roses, but who doesn't like a worry free environment?

I read in the book "Turning the mind into a ally" that we always try to make the ever-changing to stop changing, to find joy in suffering

which is like... Wrong...

We should flow with it... But how?

Haiz... Went for a feedback session for school today...

When i first went in the room, i couldn't help but notice that the way the teachers was seating was like those judges on the "Idol" shows... I was like "lol"

The session was a short one, but i just couldn't help but felt that i was a coward...

I didn't say anything there, even although i have a number of stuff to say...

Why am i so afraid? Why? My fear had completely taken over me...

Maybe due to the lack of meditation lately?

Heh... Living life in a fantasy, a unreal dream... Would i really feel happy?

We have hopes and fears to keep our "Fantasy" together, the by-product of them is what one call "Worry", because if it doesn't go according to plan, our life would be a disaster?

"Sound of wind, rustling of leaves, never been better... "

Days of...

Got started on the DSCN project...

Okay... so maybe not much yet, but i did some discussion with my group members, i think it can work out.

Found out that one can use ObjectOutputStream to pass data over the server...

Haiz... At home already still talk about school stuff... Must kick myself.

*Kicks* *Ouch* *Kicks* *Ouch!*

Okay back here, started reading a book: "Turning your mind into an ally"

So what is it about? Basically like the previous books i borrowed, it talks about "Zen" this book seems to cover some stuff that wasn't found in other books, hooray!

Hopefully it can help me find out what been happening this few weeks...

Oh ya, i almost forgot wanted to add this site here but keep forgetting (Silly Me)

Here you go! www.zenguide.com

Wa... Still so much to do... I hope i can handle...

Still got ENAD
CMSK
My Major Project (T-T)

Heh... But not forgetting that Gunz today have big update :)

I am off to play! He he!

"Winds of change, come please, blow me away..."

Heh... In a circle it completes...

Well, life is a big circle isn't it?

Heh, i hope that survive the circle tho.

Why i say that? Because i feel that i tried to control what i should do today, guess how did it work out?

It started out well, until my mind tried to go against me, like a horse that refuses to stop...

Never the less, i still feel unsafe as if i know things won't go right...

My 15 min of meditation today wasn't going too well, still being "Run-over" by my thoughts

Oh well, i guess i wouldn't call my meditation session all bad, there was a few moment of silence... i think i would need to work on it more...

Ayayaya...(O_O) tomorrow is the date i am going to start on my DSCN project(A networking+programing subject). Hope i won't screw up this time...

Oh ya, a funny thing happened one of my old friends thought i have a girl friend already...

Which wasn't true (T-T), still haven't meet the girl for me... Or is it I didn't look hard enough?

Haha...

"The spring wind, blowing on, i fly with it..."

I am still here :)

No no, i haven't forgotten about this!

I just didn't felt like writing for the past few weeks, so i drew instead...

Pictures are worth a thousand words...Yes? Well, here you go!

(One's Desire)
(End of Craziness)
(Eaten...)
(Unfocused)

So, what happened this few weeks? I hear you ask.

Well, i suppose besides the projects and homework, i can say it was quite a ok time.

But, in my major project group, i seems to be the one who slacks a lot :(

I am really afraid that i would get left behind.

Everyone, as if they know what they needed to do... Me? I am just hurrying following behind them, wearing a mask of pretences that i can and knew what was going on...

Oh, boy... Hope i get myself to do stuff right this time round...

Besides the project, i seems to be lagging behind in school work! I drew out a plan to study/revise my school work, it would be a short 15 min session each (Same amount of time i use for meditation.)

Why 15min? Well.. I told myself since i can sit for 15 minutes to still my mind why can't i do that for school work? Lets just hope this work out for the best...

Oh ya, i kinda hooked on the game GunZ nowadays, its a FPS and the best of all is that it is F2P (Free to Play)!

here's the website if you need it: http://www.gunzonline.com

But the servers tend to be crowded! Never the less, just hammer the login to get in (^_^)

Am I alone?

Hey, i would like say sorry for not updating this blog for a few days...

Well, it seems that i was too caught up in my feeling of losing control, it seems that everything that was right is now turning wrong.

Its like a tornado inside me, swirling me around i don't know what to do!

I have started to think weird questions like the one in the title... Am I alone?

Things that seems so familiar seems so... far-away...

As if i couldn't gasp them in my hand anymore...

Am I going crazy?

I read somewhere before, that this could be caused by great anxiety...

"Panic Attacks" they call it...

Gripping tightly to what i still have, i wanted to calm myself down...

Wasn't very effective tho, but i think the zen stuff i read before is helping me gain back a bit of control, i would now concentrate on doing what i am doing, and let my other "Horrible" thoughts pass and move on...

I think i would need to practice more meditation, it helps to keep peace with myself... or so they say...

But not to worry too much, i guess i would be alright after a while...

I suppose so, everything pass on sooner or later... That was what i learnt too.

Its like you are terrified of the darkness in the night, but you remember the sun will always rise in the morning, it will give you hope...

"Hope..." I whisper to myself when i lose control.

"The rising sun give me hope..."

One hand clapping...

I am sure this Koan is quite famous, i think most of you heard of this:

"What is the sound of one hand clapping?"

Think it through clearly! I suppose it will be different for everyone.

Me? Honestly i am still stuck at the gateless gate, unable to pass through...

I guess you have to give this things time, maybe one day i will pass through the gateless gate :)

I know that today's entry is a bit short, but due to time contraints...

Never the less... The koan of one hand clapping can surely keep you puzzled for a moment.

Remember, everyone's answer is different :D

here's some funny flash on Legend of Zelda i found on the web, enjoy :)

http://www.dirtydollcreations.com/The%20Real%20Legend.html (Part one)
http://www.dirtydollcreations.com/The%20Real%20Legend%20Of%20Zelda%202.html (Part 2)

Life... Oh joy...

Yup, you heard right.

Life indeed a joy to us, so cherish it, every moment of it as it will not be coming back.

Life is full of surprises, you never really know what will happen tomorrow.

Always have a "Beginner's Mind"!

I read about this in the book, this sentence made a deep impression on me:

"The past is already over, the future will seems never here, what is left is the
present"

Living in the moment, experience it fully, that's what i am trying to do.

Take more time "feeling" your surroundings, rather then rushing around...

Believe me it will do you good :)

Oh boy, the "Zen" stuffs seems to be rubbing of me, but it is a good change. I now start to appreciate more stuff in life now...

Remember:

The present is a gift, that's why we call it the "Present" :)

How to use a light-saber... Safely :)

Having seen the star wars movies, i was quite temped on the idea of owning a light-saber.

I even did a web search on how to make one from scratch :)

Well, it didn't work out... (T-T) i gave up on seeing the instructions...
Where am i suppose to find the crystals that are used in the light-saber?

But, all was not in vain, cos i found something funny too!

It is a clip on how to use light-sabers safely...

The clip is here http://www.putfile.com/media.php?n=your_lightsaber_100 (QuickTime required)

I was like "LOL" after watching it, i wouldn't want to spoil it for ya, go watch if you haven't :)

Monday blues...

It i seems that i haven't recovered from my "Holiday" mode...

Was almost late today, cos i stayed up last night watching TV :)

The primary and secondary school are now officially in the holidays, hurray for them!!

The education system is always changing, is it getting better or worse?

Some, people's answer was yes, no and some don't care those which i refer to as I-am-through-school-already type :)

The students nowadays are more stressed, and don't get back home as early as they used to be, cos they have CCAs which is carried out in the evenings, so most of them reach home at about 6-8 pm, hard for them huh?

Not to mention the enrichment programs that their parents sign them up for...

Looks like i was lucky? Although i still go to school, i kinda have a loose schedule he he :)

Well, although it isn't a holiday break for me, i guess i can live through it (>_<), never the less, the primary and secondary students earned their holidays, so... I will like to say:

"Happy June Holidays!"

Enjoy while you can.. Heh heh! Just joking ;)

Games...

Well... Life certainly isn't all fun and games, after shoving through my homework for the weekend, i can say i finally finish most if not all of it.

The smell of freedom is sure sweet!

At least this freedom will last till tomorrow, which i have to head back to school (>_<)

Recently, having spending my free time browsing the online forums, i found out that a mmorpg is now being "popular" with the people, so i went to download it and try...

Its name is "Gate to Heaven"... Nice name eh? But it's download speed was slow i had to wait 4-5 hours for it to complete (T-T).

Luckily, its a nice game and i enjoyed it quite a bit... (Hope i don't get too addicted to it, he he)

In case you wanted to know the webby for the game it is :http://www.gth.com.my

Is it free? Yes, it most certainly is!

I think i will stop here... I gotta play more.... MORE...!
Just joking ;)

Weekends...

Yup... Finally reached the weekends :)

This whole week was like the longest's week ever... I guess it is due to the fact, i am still in "holiday" mode, and it is hard to go back to attending classes.

Well..., the primary & secondary students are now taking their holiday break.

I guess that all is fair... My holidays had passed, it's best i not cling too tightly on the fact my holidays are over (>_<)

But... I sure wished it would last longer, wouldn't you do the same? ;)

Anyways, i think this "zen" stuff my friend recommended is doing me good...

Meditation is boring, but is helpful in taming my "wild" mind, or so my friend says...

Oh well... I hope that zen may be the answer to my "worry" problem...

Ah... The day seems to be lovely, i think i will go for a walk... :)

Changes...

We experience changes everyday, so did you ask yourself the question:

"Is change always good? "

To tell the truth... I am very afraid of changes, but i always will try to put up a brave front, so that others wouldn't know.

Perhaps you would ask me, "Why be afraid of change? , What's so scary about change?"

Its that kinda feeling that you would one day wake up and not know what happen around you, its like you are in a foreign place, what you know before wasn't going to aid you in this new environment.

"What now?" I would ask myself then... What will become of me? Am i going to be alone?

Alone...

No one to speak to...

No one that you know...

It is my greatest nightmare...

When always faced with this problem... I picked the choice "Escape"...

I know it wasn't the wisest thing to do. But... Is there another way?

Recently, meeting up with some of my old friends, i learnt that "Escape" wasn't the only way.

Doing some research and reading... I realized that things wasn't what i imagined, there wasn't really much to fear about being alone...

Laughing at my old self, and this question:

"What would you do when you are alone?"

I asked one of my friends, and the answer he gave was just simple maybe too simple... Making me wanna laugh.

"Then go to someplace where you are not alone... " He added with a smile...

Envy...

This morning, on the way to school...

I saw the old primary school that I went to...

It changed quite a lot, there was a new addition to the school, the field that was before doesn't really exist anymore... I still remember that I used to run about, there...

However, it will still exist in my memory...

Friends that I knew then, only to find their contact numbers sealed up in one of my boxes in my storeroom, but hey who knows... I could bump into them from time to time, fate seems to has a way with people :)

I must admit I still miss the old days, where there wasn't much to worry about.

Things was much simpler before. Discrimination didn't really exist then, one can just sit down and play with other people, regardless of their gender or race...

Why is it so hard to communicate with other people nowadays?

This question was turned over in mind for a dozen of times, but sadly no answer came to me.
Maybe it isn't time yet, perhaps i will has the answer to this when i am closer to my true self...

But now, watching the children play at the nearby playground... I just cannot help to envy them :)

Time...

Time passed very quickly...

I always thought that i would do thing better if i had more time...

Isn't that what most people wish for?

Perhaps that is why, the concept of time traveling seems so appealing to people.

But, think... If you can really travel back to the past, and change it, can the present be still called the present?

So, maybe it is a blessing that we can do our time traveling one day at a time :)

Just a piece of advise:

"Now is what that is important, cheris it! Time waits for no one..."

First entry

You know... The trends on blogs are currently on the high rise, having seeing my few friends creating blogs, making me want to do so to :)

So, here I am writting one ;)

Why do people keep blogs?
Is it becos of fame?
Perhaps it is to tell the world how he/she is feeling?

Or simply, becos they wanted to impress the girl next door?

Heh, i hope to find out too :)